This week's post is coming early because, for some reason, sleep seems to elude me tonight. I thought I should turn my temporary insomnia into something valuable (fingers crossed!). I've just realized that the best conversations happen at 4:30 am. The conversation I had with one of my closest friends on Monday morning left me energized for the entire day. So, if you ever find yourself wide awake at 4:30 am and in need of a conversation, you know who to call or text. The week so far has been okay, but my sleep has been sporadic, and tonight is no exception as sleep seems to have abandoned me.
Over the past two weeks, my levels of introspection have been on hyperdrive. It's not just about putting stuff on the internet that will be there forever, but also about restarting my overall creativity. Let me paint you a picture: You have a Mercedes, a classic from the 1970s that hasn't been used since the 1990s. These cars are built to last for decades, even generations. But here's the challenge: waking up a dormant giant that has been asleep for an extended period. You'd throw everything at it, even the kitchen sink, just to bring it back to life. Now, replace that beautiful car with my creativity (I may be giving it too much credit here) and the kitchen sink with a metaphorical thump on the side of the head (I thought about using the actual sink, but I decided to avoid permanent brain damage until my 10th post). What remains now is me going through a "Creativity Factory Reset," and what you see here is the residue.
The topic for this week is Déjà Vu. In case this phrase is new to you, let me pull out the dictionary. Oxford Dictionary defines Déjà Vu as "a feeling of having already experienced the present situation." Recently, I tried out Disney+Hotstar and Jio Cinema (it's only been two days), and the only shows I watched were How I Met Your Mother and Game of Thrones, both of which I have seen and loved in the past. Something interesting happened: I started exhibiting behaviors similar to what I did when I watched them for the first time.
Regarding How I Met Your Mother, my desire to have a meaningful relationship or fall in love was reignited after almost four years. Additionally, I had been contemplating starting a blog for the last five months but always held back. However, after starting HIMYM, I just went for it. Around the time I was watching the show, I was writing a lot, mostly poetry, but it was something (even though Ted's actions still make me cringe to this day).
As for Game of Thrones, it triggered its own relapse. I had abstained from gaming for almost two months, but I ended up downloading and playing the exact same game I played when I binged six seasons of GoT towards the end of 2016. Well, the game has been uninstalled, but I never expected that watching an old TV show would revive past habits. Food for thought, right?
During an internet search about watching old shows, I came across a fascinating article [1] that states rewatching causes certain moods described as "self-care" and "comfort." It could also require less mental presence since you already know the plot lines and major events. I'm definitely diving into this rabbit hole this week. One thing is for sure—I won't be getting any sleep tonight. And if Einstein's quotes are anything to go by, I'm currently experiencing "Insomnia fueled by Insanity."
Have you ever experienced Déjà Vu while revisiting old habits? The comment section is calling your name! As always, I hope you are safe and in good health.
Keep strong, keep smiling. Until next time!
[1] Link to the article: https://www.wsj.com/articles/deja-view-the-psychology-behind-the-rewatch-11570549278
Disclaimer: ChatGPT was used for checking grammar and structure with minimal changes to the original draft.
P.S. No coffee beans were sacrificed in the creation of this post.
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